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I've really been enjoying A Passion for the Impossible: The Life of Lilias Trotter. Here are just a few excerpts from her journal that I'm pondering these days:
- The martens have been reading me a faith lesson. They come in flights at this time of year - lovely things with blue throats and feathered claws - one slept in my room last night and another darted in at the open window before I was up, swept round and out again. Their faith lesson is this - that their wings need the sense of "an empty void" below to give them a start - their leg muscles have no spring in them and when they perch by accident on a level place they are stuck fast - poor things, we did not know that natural history fact in the past and when we have found them on our flat Algier roof with its parapet protection, we have thought they had got hurt somehow, and more than once we have tried to feed them till they died, instead of doing the one thing that they needed - tossing them off into emptiness. So we need not wonder if we are not allowed to stay long in level sheltered places - our faith wings are like the martens and mostly need the gulf of some emergency to give them their start on a new flight. We will not fear when we feel empty air under them.
- "As an eagle... fluttereth over her young, spreadeth abroad her wings, taketh them on her wings - so the Lord alone did lead him." Fluttereth over - the early stages of faith are reaching upward, like the eaglets for their food when the mother-bird is overhead... it is an older faith that learns to swing out into nothingness and drop down full weight on God - the broken up nest of former "experiences" left behind - nothing between us and the abyss but Himself - A rejoicing in every fresh emergency that is going to prove Him true - The Lord Alone - that is trained faith.
- God's guidance, if our soul's instinct is healthy, tallies with the sense of rest - in a very real way, this sense of rest guides us - and legislates for us. Anything that brings a sense of restlessness means that we have got further from under the cloud shadow - we have gone off on some self devised path, or we have not kept pace with God... It is the same in cases of perplexity - where there is no clear command in His word to guide us - where the sense of rest falls (always taking for granted that our wills are in His Hand) there is His path - it is there that the shadow of His cloud is falling.
- When God delays in fulfilling our little thoughts, it is to have Himself room to work out His great ones.
- Praying down rather than praying up - that is the summing up... that the velocity and power of anything that comes down, gains in a ratio of high proportion with the height from which it drops: Even from an aeroplane, a pencil falling will take on the force of a bullet. What might not our prayer power be if it comes down from the throne of the Priest.
Hi! Thought I'd stop by to reiterate, once again, how much I enjoy reading your blog and keeping up on your life in Uganda. We really can't wait to get there (But God has us doing so anyway). Love your perspective!
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