Sunday, January 13, 2013

the Word became Flesh...

in the midst of it all.
We've been back from retreat just one week, and I am still processing all that God said.  One verse that has been echoing in my heart is John 1:14  Amazingly, it is totally in line with my one word, inLove...

"the Word became flesh and made His dwelling among us." -John 1:14  Other translations say "He pitched His tent among us..." or "He moved into the neighborhood..."  It's more than just coming for a visit or getting a stamp in His passport.  He became a citizen.  He walked the dusty roads with people.  He sat around the coffee shop and listened to people's stories.  He ate their food.  He read their books.  He spoke their language.  He probably would have ridden on boda-bodas and sat in traffic jams.  And if I am really here in Uganda to imitate Jesus, and love like He loved- then so far- I've pretty much failed.

view from a distance.
I confess that I've taken the easy road on most days.  I work out in my living room, not jog on the street.  I invite people up to my house, not visit in their homes.  I drive with the air-conditioning on and the windows rolled up.  I don't make time to open the Word with the one Ugandan who is in my home every day.  I shop at the grocery store, not the market.

I love my small group of university ladies, and I meet with them at their hostel.  But that is one victory out of many failures.  And I begrudged going down to the hostel a time or two. 

Missionaries aren't perfect.  We may be commended for leaving homes and families... but if we haven't engaged in the community and culture we've come to- I wonder how much that sacrifice blesses Him (to obey is better than sacrifice).  I do believe God {in His grace and mercy} has used me this first term, but there are a million ways I avoided being used.   

I'm grateful His mercies are new every morning.  I'm gonna need them this year of living in Love.  It's definitely going to be a year of stretching; as I allow His life to fill this skin of mine in 2013.  I'm not exactly looking forward to the heart surgery He will have to do, to get my life to look like His- but I am confident of this: He who began a good work in me, will be faithful to complete it (Philippians 1:6).  And He is able to take this heart of stone, and put in me a heart of flesh (Ezekiel 11:19)!

What is He calling you to in 2013?  What are you resolving will be different this year?

3 comments:

  1. WOW! What an amazing journey. "heart surgery"...LOVE that. I can't wait to read more about what you discover you're capable of and how Heavenly Father uses you in that amazing place. Thank you so much for sharing both your struggles and your hope.

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  2. Oh wow! I loved every bit of your openness and willingness to share your weaknesses. Praise God that He is doing a new work in you where you are. I can't wait to see how He lavishes His LOVE on you for you to lavish on the people you are serving! Adding you to my prayer list!

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  3. Hi Kelly, you commented on my blog where I'm counting my gifts this year. I was just poking around here and wanted you to know that I will pray for you and your family this year... especially for you and your journey to be 'in love'. God bless. Ann (http://firstthessaloniansfiveeighteen.wordpress.com/)

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