"My lord knows that the children are weak... please let my lord go on ahead before his servant. I will lead on slowly at a pace which the children are able to endure..." -Genesis 33:13-14
Jacob was talking with Esau, and he knew the limitations of his large family... he didn't want to drive his young ones harder than they could endure. How are we, as a culture, doing at this? I know I am convicted of trying to do too much at times. But I must lead on slowly. No running for me!
It feels like losing. this foot-tying. this voluntary limitation. These days are full of a thousand opportunities to die to self. I can die gracefully, or resentfully. I can let these tiny deaths make me bitter or beautiful. And so I say, "Yes, Lord. Use these children of mine to apply the knife of the cross to all of my old self- anywhere You can see it, in all the places where I do not know it..."